I’m so political

Guy checks out girlWere it not for a certain website (I’d mention which one except I don’t want Rick to think I’m looking for free hits – wait, yes I am: it’s SFDB!!!), I’d be completely outside of the political loop. Two examples: 1) in 1988, I didn’t know who our president was until four days after the election, and (more recently) 2) I had never heard Obama’s voice until the day of his inauguration when I realized, “Oh hey, I think today’s the inauguration” at which point I cut on the tv for a few minutes.

Point being, I read over there the latest scandal about Obama. It reminded me that I’ve managed to take a number of similar photos in South Beach. You’ll find those scandalous photos tagged in the Street +/ Life gallery under The Eyes Have It.

(Not so scandalous, really. Just all the every day in South Beach.)

Few places worse

Street musician, no. 679I love music. I abso-lute-ly love music. And I’ll listen to it non-stop in stretches. For days on end. There were times when I was in South Beach when I would take my iPod out just to listen to specific songs while I was on the street shooting people. But I’m not really big on music drowning out the world around me. I don’t keep music running in the background of day to day life much, either, as it can distract me from what I need to do; I’ll find myself way too caught up in it.

However, there are certain instances that absolutely mandate that music be played beyond loudly through earbuds, silencing out everything around. Noise, I can stand; whether it be a thousand cicadas screeching through the night or sirens wailing through the streets of some metropolis, these sounds are acceptable. Garish people blabbing about their vacuous lives in a coffee shop, however…I don’t want to hear it. At all. Not unless they’re really, really sexy. I mean super-sexy.

And this town is overflowing with loudly talking blahs. Not the sexy so much.

I was lamenting to the folks last night about how I couldn’t stand this town. How I had forgotten how much I loathe it. And it’s the people. It’s the people that make me not want to be here. It’s filled to the rim with self-obsessed, pretentious snots who, when you ponder them (from first glance and from the first words that come out of their large gaping pieholes), you wonder why at all they are self-obsessed and pretentious. Yet they are. I hate to be so cynical and negative, but if I were any one of these people, I would quickly get myself to the largest church I could find and pray for a do-over from day one.

Pops asked, “Are the people not shallow in Miami? (Yeah, I know. I laughed, too.)

“They’re absolutely shallow in Miami! But I expect it there.” It’s one of the many things I like about Miami and, more specifically, South Beach. In Miami, it makes sense. It’s almost part of the culture. Maybe it is part of the culture. Maybe it’s in the South Beach handbook or Visitor’s Guide. Here in gentrified HeeHawVille, though, it’s unwarranted. It’s vulgar. It’s… it’s … just get me the hell out of here.

I was watching Tora! Tora! Tora! on television earlier (it’s been a really busy week for me) and as I sat there watching it, I found myself wishing that the Japanese had targeted Charlotte, North Carolina, instead of Pearl Harbor.

Snake, Escape from New YorkMaybe we could do something like Escape from New York and just put a lockdown on Charlotte. Let it serve as a lesson to the rest of humanity on how not to build a society. Just as long as I get out of here before the walls go up. I don’t really want to be Snake in this pit but I will if I have to.

Bastille Day

The PatriotI’m not really big on the fourth of July as a holiday. It’s not a patriotic issue; it’s a nice USA moment, but I’ve never been overly thrilled about fireworks and the celebration of it. My only standout memory of Independence Day is being in a car somewhere, July 4th, 1976, the two hundredth anniversary. That’s my standout memory: being in a car somewhere.

And even though I’m not big on the fourth, I’m all about Bastille Day!!! It’s ten days now until Bastille Day. Okay, I’m not that big on Bastille Day, but I knew it was coming close and I always remember that one of my good friends has a birthday on that day. So in case I forget, Happy Birthday. I won’t forget, though.

In other news, I missed the extended family gathering tonight. I didn’t want to at all. However, after a relatively short visit at the ER this morning, I found out I have walking pneumonia. I’ve been in tremendous amounts of pain from some ongoing infections, so in combination with the pneumonia, I sat it out. I got a prescription for some antibiotics and pain medicine. I was relieved when I found out it wasn’t codeine; makes my stomach turn. But then, when I looked at the bottle, it’s actually codeine. However, I haven’t been sick and I think the trick is actually eating food.

Hm. Yes. I be smart. It only took me a couple of decades to understand what that warning on the side of the bottle about taking it with food actually meant.

It’s late in the evening now. I felt like a million bucks earlier. You know, in 2090 currency. But still. And I took some more codeine (after the properly allotted amount of time) and I feel pretty good again.

I’m using my down time right now to catch up on photos. Shortly, I’ll get to all of the video I shot over the past two months since my last update was a quick clip I threw together of nothing but the sounds of a train in the night. And believe it or not, I never did put up the photos from my last day of driving to LAX. The day I purposefully detoured into Watts. The day I purposefully detoured into Compton. The day I ran out of gas in South Central LA. Not purposefully.

Mr. MurphyBut I was thinking about something else when I started this post and it was this: Early into the last day of driving here, to Charlotte, I stopped at a L’il Cricket gas station in one of a hundred small towns in South Carolina. I think I was in Whitmire. Can’t remember. Susan Smith country, though. There was a cluster of individuals hanging around outside the station; two men, one woman. People would drive up to get gas, get a beer… everyone knew everyone there and what they were doing. This was not a large town.

One of the men standing around began to talk to me. The usual questions. Then he told me his name and he shook my hand. He emphasized the importance of his name as it related to a famous baseball player. Of course, I don’t follow sports so it was lost on me. But it struck me at that moment that he wasn’t the first to tell me their name. He wasn’t the first person to introduce himself to me and tell me the catch to his name and how I could or should remember it.

Murphy. Jimmy. Sammy. Others. All of these characters stood behind a name. And all of them wanted to make sure I remembered. To make sure I remembered. (I’m getting into southern preacher mode where I repeat a phrase for emphasis. Can I get an Amen?)

I’ve thought about that off and on over the past couple of days. I’ve thought about my own person. I’m not really any different. Only, rather than standing at a gas station talking to anyone who walks up or sitting at a Starbucks taking an interest in the unusual but obvious passerby to and through town, I’m sitting here, behind a keyboard and behind a lens, saying, “I am Scott. I was here. Remember me.” Perhaps. Or maybe not.

I guess it comes back to living, really, and that I’d like to live as much as possible. I keep thinking I’m going to write a letter to Castro and ask him if he needs a personal photographer. Not that I have any political sentiments one way or another (although I’m sure I could be swayed if I listened to one argument or another) and I certainly have no political aspirations (unless you count wanting to rule the known world or, at the very least, a small cult). It’s just that it seems like it would be a gig I would remember. Maybe something else, though, would be more fitting for me.

I should probably get that notion out of my head. The last great notion I had was to drive across country on a 50cc scooter. And, well… yeah.

When I come back to Miami, I’m going to continue to shoot models. I’d like to get back to shooting people on the street, too. It’s been nice to see and photograph this country, but I enjoy shooting people so much more than anything else. This trip confirmed that for me. People are always so interesting to me; and they make beautiful subjects.

I’ll probably be doing some other stuff when I return.

I’ll feel so much more at home when I get back home. It’s nice being here with my parents. (I have to say that since they’ll probably be reading this before I wake up in the morning; kidding, I’d say it anyway. Who loves ya, baby?!) But like I said before, no place feels more like home to me than South Beach and as long as I’m going to live in the US, I’d rather be in South Beach than anywhere.

I’m taking care of my health, as much as I can. I’ve had issues for so long and they aren’t going away anytime soon. But I can’t continue on like this. This last half of the trip, from LA to here, has been hell on my body. The heat made things worse. When you have a sweat gland issue, and you’re driving around on a scooter in 100+ degree weather with 60+ pounds strapped around your shoulder, you’re kind of inviting problems. And I did. But I made it. In mostly one piece. For me, though, the trip isn’t finished until I arrive back in South Beach.

Speaking of the trip, I hit some milestones along the way. The 10K kilometer mark. The 15K kilometer mark. To date, since leaving nearly two and one-half months ago, I’ve covered roughly 7,200 miles. Like I said the other day, I’ll get around to some of the details of the trip.

So that’s kind of it for now. Happy Bastille Day in case I forget. Which I won’t.

Jumping

Self-portrait, lakeI’m in Charlotte now. I got here yesterday afternoon. I’m resting, or in dude-speak, takin’ ‘er easy. Since about the time I left Roswell, New Mexico, I’ve been sort of jumping around on this site in terms of what I post. One day, I post about what happened the night before, the next day it’s something that happened two weeks prior. Many days, I posted nothing at all.

It’s been difficult to keep up. I really wanted to tell the story of the three-day drive from Roswell to Houston as it was, for me, a big part of the journey. But I didn’t have the time or energy then to write about it. (I’ll get to it.) Driving at night became standard operating procedure during that time as it was too hot to drive during the day, and the trip took on an altogether different… a different everything.

LobbyAnyway, when I finally reached Houston, I lounged with Liz and remained in a state of total and utter relaxation. I took practically zero photos (outside of the two shoots with Kesley and one with Jas). I didn’t want to get back on the road. I considered staying in Houston and starting a new life there. Or thereabouts. And why not? I have a myriad of friends in the area, a lot of connections, and inside the beltway is entirely livable. But I got back on the road, as much as I didn’t want to, to head east.

I spent another two days in Beaumont, Texas, after I left Houston. Why on earth I kept getting drawn to Beaumont is beyond me. In any event, I’m in one spot now and I’m going to catch up on things. I’m going to go back and finish the Bridge over The Mississippi Rivertales, more for my own sake than anything. So that I can have a record of what happened. I’m catching up on photos now, although, as I told someone else, I found the southeast less inspiring than most anywhere else. I think that’s perhaps because I already know this land. That, and it doesn’t hold a lot of really good memories for me. Plus, I’ve been sick since Mississippi. The photos I’ve taken along this last half of the trip, for the most part, have been more of a chronicle of the drive than anything else, a large number of the photos actually taken while driving or stopped at a light. Things that caught my eye while, literally, on the road. Then too, I did stop to take some in particular.

It seems like a year has passed since I was in Los Angeles. But it was only a month ago. So much has happened. But nothing of any real consequence.

Photos here.

Last day, for a while

PoolboyIt’s 12:51am. I’m in Clinton, South Carolina. I’m less than thirty miles away from the house where my children live currently. I thought of staying in that crappy town so I could see them for a night (before I see them as planned a few days from now), however, they’re at the beach for the week. Oh well. Soon enough. I’m roughly ninety miles away from my parents’ home and I am heading there in the morning. I’ll be glad to get there.

I really don’t mean to whine, but I’m going to anyway. I spent two nights in Jasper thinking I would get better. Then I drove to Rome. Surprisingly, changing my geography didn’t heal me. I thought I would drive to Athens and stay in a hotel again to try and get better and I decided instead to camp out just west of Athens. Again, no improvement to my health. The next day, the shakes came on again from a fever. I stayed in Athens for a night. Today I finally got out of Georgia and drove here. To Clinton.

I’m emaciated, I’m entirely without energy, I have more infections than I can count, and I have a cold on top. I’m reasonably certain that I’ve remained dehydrated for a while now despite drinking liquids. I’m also reasonably certain that I’ll be visiting a hospital next week. And it’s probably going to be a VA hospital, you know, me being a disabled vet and all.

The thing I loathe about going to the hospital is that whenever I arrive, they always want to admit me (and I usually need it). And they always think that maybe there’s something else wrong with me other than what’s been diagnosed one hundred times over. And they always think that, “ah, well, we can fix him.”

I do love me some cold, clinical care, though. Those nice quiet rooms, somewhat muffled voices coming from speakers in the hallways that, from time to time, call out for Doctor Such and Such to report to the ER. Machines sitting still beside the bed with the occasional green beep, a black-faced LCD constantly monitoring something or other on a precise and pretty screen (matching paper readouts also available). A saline drip into my veins, after three attempts to get the needle into my arm. (The nurse had a bad day, what with her daughter just wrecking her new car; can’t hit the vein.) The sheets that are too tight on that first night before they become a mountain of blanket and sheet in one corner of the bed, the flat sheet covered in sweat, exposing the mattress underneath at the edges. The continual smell of strong antibiotics. A tray of food with a jello fruit cup that never tasted so good yet was so difficult to swallow.

Those sugar packets are going in my milk, and once more, I will try and replicate the taste of that sweet milk I had as a child on some Pan Am 747 flight across the Atlantic. They used to give the children little captain’s wings. I had some of those. I used to have a lot of material things.

Things. It’s been interesting to see how this country lives. And it’s been interesting to see how, all across the land, it doesn’t live.

I saw a home today. It was in the middle of a forest, sitting on roughly ten acres. And on those ten acres, every tree that had stood there before was cut down. The land was barren except for this one house. Not a great house. A two-story, very plain (almost offensive) vinyl siding house. In gray. Only it was probably called something like Steel Gray or Gray Steel or Silver Lining Cloud Gray.

Eh. What do I care? It’s not my life they’re living. I didn’t mean that like it read. Listen, there’s no great shame in plodding through life, going through life being bland, just… existing from one day to the next. Buying things. Doing stuff. Collecting. Accomplishing. There isn’t. The world needs us. Rather, you. (Not you people, my friends; I’m talking to the ones who don’t read between the lines. Or in parentheses.) It’s just… it’s really not my bag, not living like that. And I’m not bitching about it. It’s fine. Like I said, it’s all part of some great balance. Or imbalance.

Or maybe not.

Ugh. Now Steven Segal is ruining my television viewing experience. At least there are 58 other sleepless channels to choose from, most of them in a language I can understand: the language of commerce. (And please, Tommy, should you read this, don’t think I’m just coming to some great awakening; I’m just delirious on Tylenol PM, for all your achy, stuffy night-time needs – or maybe that’s some other medicine.) Wait, what’s this? Two bikini-clad early 90s hotties in some dilapidated foreign prison?!?! Save them, Steven! Save them! Save them with your serious face(:|) and your fearless ninja skills(!) and your… an-and… are you wearing a girdle? Ugh.

Hospitals usually have a lot of channels on their televisions.

I’m sleepy now. I think I’ll go to bed.