are back. Right in the middle of my sternum. I need to go the hospital.
I’ve been writhing in pain for the past 20 minutes or so. I think I should go. But it feels kind of like it’s subsiding. What the hell is this? It’s the same pain as last night. And an ekg showed nothing?

People have said maybe it’s a panic attack. I’ve been so devestated by the actions of this one girl who seems hell-bent on destroying my name, my reputation and my livelihood when I’ve done nothing to her.

But maybe it’s all in my head.

Thrice now, I’ve sunk my heart and soul into projects (two girls and flickr), with all of my love and devotion. And thrice these things have been ripped away. All of the time and blood invested and I just walked away (although I’m not through with Flickr yet; it’s soooo, sooo very wrong).

My chest hurts badly. It can’t be connected.

update:
I’m better than this. I can take the high road. I can ignore this. I can put everything behind me. I can not care about the negative. I don’t have time or energy for it. I don’t. The pain is nearly gone. I’m feeling better. Maybe it’s psychosomatic. I don’t know what the hell it is, but if it hits again, I’m going.